Happiness

I follow another mother's blog Snarky Mommy and today she blogged about the guilt she feels after seeing stories about dying children or a husband who lost his wife the day after the birth of their baby. She commented that when she hears those stories she tries to put life into perspective, yet over time she is back to the same stresses and demands and can't always look past those pesky problems such as her son throwing a bowl of peas during dinner.

I admit that as snarky as I am, I certainly forget to see the funny. Later, I generally find a funny twist on things but I tend to get too serious at the time and snap out.

Glenn and I are going through a major dispute right now. As I mentioned earlier, he is smoking again. No, it was not a one time thing. He's buying a pack a week (to my knowledge). He quit 11 1/2 years ago and I was very proud of him when he did it. It is an expensive, smelly, filthy habit. And 11 years ago, the price was less than half what it is today. I have taken to punching him everytime he discusses the cigarettes or lights up. I know it sounds abusive, but, if he's going to abuse his body with those stinky sticks then I'll be glad to give him some abuse where the pain remains long enough for him to remember. Pretty soon I expect to see a bruise on his upper right arm. That tends to be the spot where I get him. I discussed this situation with his father last week and he is agreement with me and my punishment. He even lets me know when Glenn sneaks off to grab a smoke.

I know that hitting my husband is not kindly, wifely thing to do. Yet, he has high cholesterol and cancer in his family. I'd rather he felt some pain now than for him to have a heart attack or lung cancer. I don't want to lose my husband young. I want him to be around long enough for us to enjoy the time after Cameron goes off to college or military. And to enjoy our grandchildren together. We missed a great deal of time together while we were young. Glenn will be 50 when Cameron graduates. I'll be 47. That is still young enough to get the RV and travel the U.S. or for Glenn to become a long distance driver and I'll join him on the road.

I've been a bit "bitchier" lately and I think it's due to woman's moods. I asked Cameron if I've been nastier lately. He responded no. He just discovered that if Mommy gets what she wants, she's happy. If not, noones happy. I assure you we don't use that popular line in our house. In fact, it's usually if Glenn is unhappy, then the house is unhappy. He sulks thereby bringing the mood of the house down. Everyday we stress when he is coming home in fear of what he will find wrong. He checks out the car to be sure I did not scuff tires or scratch it. Then looks inside to see if we left a mess. He's gotten better about the house. In fact, he tends to ignore Cameron's room, which I have a problem doing. The dishes are rarely done when he gets home and for some reason, the house is always dusty. I think it's the furnace vents! I have to clean the dust in the bathroom almost every other day. Well I should do it every other day, but I'm just too lazy.

Last night, I downloaded a book Make Money with Overstock.com. After paying $24, I discovered that it was just a how-to on auction selling on overstock.com. Well, I know how to E-bay, so I decided to start ebaying again. I've been shopping at Crazy 8's alot so at 8 p.m. last night I headed up there to see if they had anything cheap. Unfortunately, their $2.99 sale was over. We headed over to Macy's and found a few things for $4.99 and I uploaded them last night. During this whole trip, Glenn sulked.

He is still sulking about work. Now, I support him and how he feels. Yet, we can't change the situation and I find that sulking about it gets us no where...excepting fighting.

I'm getting excited about summer. I need to find something to keep Cameron and I busy. Right now, he is playing Webkinz.com and I think if given the opportunity, he would do that all summer.

Last year, for Glenn's birthday, his mother gave him her Chrysler LeBaron. It's a nice car that needs a new transmission and a new top. A few months ago, we finally moved the car from Schenley to our house. We kept planning to use boat money to fix the car, but somehow the money always got spent and the car sat out back. On Monday, Glenn sold the Lincoln Towncar that I drive. He decided to use the money to fix the transmission. On Wednesday, the tow truck came and took the car to Ohio to be repaired. We'll get to the top soon. I figure we can park it in the shop when it rains until it's fixed. That's what we did with the VW. Sound great, right?

Now, let me tell you about a little addiction problem my dear husband has. CRAIGSLIST. I take the blame for this. A few years ago it was e-bay. When I say I take the blame it means I told him about the website. Once he discovers a place where he can shop from the comfort of our bed or the living room sofa, he's all in. Even better when the site contains cars and car parts. A few years ago, during a hurricane evacuation, Glenn slid off the road and damaged the side of his Dodge Ram. By purchasing replacement/upgrade parts on e-bay we were able to save enough on the repairs to replace the laptop lost in the accident. So I can't fault him too much on that one. Let's not discuss the "lost" oil change receipts from Gulf Coast Dodge. Later to be discovered that those receipts also were for new chrome trim, etc. He's been car and motorcycle shopping on craigslist.com. Every night he laments that "great, now that I sent the Chrysler to be fixed, there is a **** online, I can buy." I find it to be annoying when he does this. I think the responsible thing was to do exactly as we did. I think I'd be hurt if I gave someone a car and they just let it sit in their yard, while they bought several other cars. Now, he is considering selling the Chrysler and buying a motorcycle. He feels like the poor kid when his friends talk about going riding and he can't. I don't care if he gets a motorcycle, but I'll be left driving the Cadillac and since it was the car he bought to drive, I'll always feel like it's his car and feel funny driving it.

Not that I expect the Cadillac to stick around long. He's been talking about selling it since he bought it. Please dear Lord, let my husband be happy long enough to stop. I was surprised that the Lincoln made it 10 1/2 months. Glenn's usual ownership is 6 months. Although, he's been itching to sell it since September (which was 4 months of ownership). I'm used to buy and keep until it's unfixable. I wouldn't mind too much if it didn't cost me money everytime he did it. He sells a car for 1,000 then buys a new one for 1,000. So now the transfer has cost me $$$. No gain! I like gain.

I'm laughing out loud right now as I look at Cameron. He's on webkinz.com and just virtually spun a wheel and he has his fingers crossed. It's so cute.

As I said before, I'm snarky...sarcastic, if you may. I've been reading http://forums.televisionwithoutpity.com/index.php?&showforum=490 and my favorite shows to read/snark about are Real Housewives of New York, Table for Twelve, RHoOC, and Little People, Big World. Yes, I know, I need a life. If you ever need a good laugh, visit this site and read the forums, especially the RHoNY, the posts have been especially hilarious lately. If you actually watch RHoNY or Judge Judy, visit http://jezebel.com/5194344/comic-confrontations-judge-judy-vs-the-real-housewives-of-new-york it will make you laugh so hard, you'll cry. I read it while Glenn was asleep beside me and had the hardest time holding my laugh in.

I'm currently going through Grey's Anatomy withdrawal so I've ramped up my reality tv watching. Table for Twelve is a new show on TLC about a family with 2 sets of twins and a set of sextuplets. They are great and the complete opposite of Jon & Kate Plus 8. I saw the preview of Real Housewives of New Jersey and I think it's gonna be a wild ride.

Now, as a balm for my soul, I'll go watch Seventh Heaven. Have a great weekend.