I've been thinking a lot about my past. I've spent a great deal of my life, up to and including today, wanting people's approval and love. Many times I have wanted that approval so much that I have allowed my self to accept toxic relationships in my life, as well as, being toxic to others.
From this point forward, I am sending all toxic relationships to the place they rightly belong, the garbage.
I have a small circle of friends and family whom have no toxic value. I intend to nurture those relationships into beautiful blooming flowers.
This morning I woke up feeling blah! I've been feeling blah for the past few days, but today I just did not want to venture far from my bed. In fact, I have not. We were invited to Glenn's friend, Shawn's house for dinner. I decided that based on my feelings, I wanted to stay home in bed playing backgammon, reading and watching sappy movies on TV. When I lay around and read I tend to think. Thinking sometimes can be my downfall. However, today I wanted those thoughts to produce something forward for me. I believe that they have. They have allowed me to realize something very significant about myself. Now, I need to hold firm to my resolution and begin a positive lifestyle. Learn to say no to toxicity or any other things that could bring toxicity into my life.
The next few days will be spent trying to decide what to do about our anniversary. We don't want to sit around doing the same old, same old. We know that if we hang out at home Glenn will end up working on his car and I'll end up resenting it. Glenn suggested that we go visit his aunt and uncle in Ohio. Unfortunately, we were a bit late requesting a place in their schedule. They are quite busy and social and we've learned that we need to schedule months in advance, not a week, LOL. I looked up Hershey Park today but they are not open yet and the price is as high as Disney World. We are considering a drive up to Niagara Falls, NY. As that is an option we have tossed about for some time, I think it may be the way we go.
Also, we have decided to schedule our vacation this year to coincide with Christmas. Our plan is to put boat money aside and rent a van or RV and tour the Southwest/West for two weeks while Cameron is off school. It has been a dream of ours. We had intended this trip to include Kelly and be taken this summer. It was designed to be her pre-college family trip. I suggested the trip to her while she lived here and she was not interested. I think Cameron will really enjoy the history aspect of the trip. Glenn and I will get an atlas soon to begin mapping out the trip and then we'll do some historical research on places we'd like to visit. Our mid point destination is Arizona. We'd like to see the Grand Canyon and my best friend lives in Phoenix.
I was watching a repeat of Little People, Big World last night and became interested in the Mississippi Queen riverboat they were vacationing on. I tried to look up trips on it, but they list none after March, 2009. When I mentioned it to Glenn he thought it might be too cold in December to be on the water. I guess I agree with him.
There are so many places to see and we'd like to see them with Cameron.
I'm off to continue watching sappy movies. Right now I'm watching The Holiday with Cameron Diaz and Kate Winslet. I've been wanting to see it and am glad it's on TV. Next is Last Holiday with Queen Latifah. I've seen it several times so I may end up back on Fox News. I don't think I can handle the RHONY or Secret Life of the American Teenager marathons. They both make me want to throw something at the TV. I guess FOX News can do the same, but at least they are saying things that make sense.
I have a small circle of friends and family whom have no toxic value. I intend to nurture those relationships into beautiful blooming flowers.
This morning I woke up feeling blah! I've been feeling blah for the past few days, but today I just did not want to venture far from my bed. In fact, I have not. We were invited to Glenn's friend, Shawn's house for dinner. I decided that based on my feelings, I wanted to stay home in bed playing backgammon, reading and watching sappy movies on TV. When I lay around and read I tend to think. Thinking sometimes can be my downfall. However, today I wanted those thoughts to produce something forward for me. I believe that they have. They have allowed me to realize something very significant about myself. Now, I need to hold firm to my resolution and begin a positive lifestyle. Learn to say no to toxicity or any other things that could bring toxicity into my life.
The next few days will be spent trying to decide what to do about our anniversary. We don't want to sit around doing the same old, same old. We know that if we hang out at home Glenn will end up working on his car and I'll end up resenting it. Glenn suggested that we go visit his aunt and uncle in Ohio. Unfortunately, we were a bit late requesting a place in their schedule. They are quite busy and social and we've learned that we need to schedule months in advance, not a week, LOL. I looked up Hershey Park today but they are not open yet and the price is as high as Disney World. We are considering a drive up to Niagara Falls, NY. As that is an option we have tossed about for some time, I think it may be the way we go.
Also, we have decided to schedule our vacation this year to coincide with Christmas. Our plan is to put boat money aside and rent a van or RV and tour the Southwest/West for two weeks while Cameron is off school. It has been a dream of ours. We had intended this trip to include Kelly and be taken this summer. It was designed to be her pre-college family trip. I suggested the trip to her while she lived here and she was not interested. I think Cameron will really enjoy the history aspect of the trip. Glenn and I will get an atlas soon to begin mapping out the trip and then we'll do some historical research on places we'd like to visit. Our mid point destination is Arizona. We'd like to see the Grand Canyon and my best friend lives in Phoenix.
I was watching a repeat of Little People, Big World last night and became interested in the Mississippi Queen riverboat they were vacationing on. I tried to look up trips on it, but they list none after March, 2009. When I mentioned it to Glenn he thought it might be too cold in December to be on the water. I guess I agree with him.
There are so many places to see and we'd like to see them with Cameron.
I'm off to continue watching sappy movies. Right now I'm watching The Holiday with Cameron Diaz and Kate Winslet. I've been wanting to see it and am glad it's on TV. Next is Last Holiday with Queen Latifah. I've seen it several times so I may end up back on Fox News. I don't think I can handle the RHONY or Secret Life of the American Teenager marathons. They both make me want to throw something at the TV. I guess FOX News can do the same, but at least they are saying things that make sense.
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