Pre New Years Resolutions

So I've finally come to terms with the future of our nation and I'm onto now trying to figure out how it will affect my friends and family. I'm not quite sure, but, I do know that I am not going to dwell on it to the point of distraction.

I'm finding that there are a great many things that I don't like about myself. I'm not having a pity party, just finding that there are things in need of improvement: weight, mood, how I handle situations, my relationship with God, etc.

I realize it's only November, but, I'm starting my New Years Resolution list early.

1. I want to lose weight so my knees stop hurting and I don't feel ill when I see a photo of myself.

2. I want to wake up each morning and go to bed each night with a smile on my face and remember to thank God for allowing me to wake up and for allowing me to spend the day with my friends and family. Also, for guiding me to tell at least one person a day about Jesus Christ.

3. I want to remember to stop, count to 10 and then walk away before I react to situations. Keep my mouth shut even when I want to yell and scream. Not comment on a situation or problem until I have had time to form a smart, rational and helpful answer.

4. I want to have at least one positive conversation with Kelly and Cameron each and every day where we each laugh freely and smile without reservation at each other.

5. I want to make church and God a larger part of my daily life.

6. I want to remember to stop saying unkind things to my husband, even when it's right on the tip of my tongue. I will bite my tongue to the point of blood if necessary.

7. I want to make more time to talk to my mother, sister and grandfather.

These are the things I want to accomplish. I cannot promise that each will come true. I just want to make my best effort to accomplish them. I am getting onto Middle Age and realize that although I love myself, my husband, my God and my children, I am not perfect, will never be perfect, nor do I want to be. I just want to be a better person for my family. I want my family and I to become closer and work to overcome the past few years. I hate my actions and words when I am being unkind, I just can't stop myself sometimes. My husband and kids are in my mind always and I want what is best for them and to be close to them.